This week has been pretty weird! We have a ton of things to go through and put away and still there are boxes to be opened and today when I went to the store by myself all I could think of was going home! Oh…I don’t mean I miss the old house or that I hate it here (although it is SO different I wonder what the hell I’m doing here sometimes) it just isn’t familiar and I miss being able to call friends and see people and do the usual things that we used to do (the farm, the zoo, the beach…man do I miss the beach!) I am stuck in between and I really feel it sometimes! No matter how often I tell myself that we’re on the two year plan I’m just not sure and I feel lost!
I don’t want anyone to feel sorry for me…I look at my life and I know my kids and husband and I are healthy and we live in a nice house on an acre of land…most people would kill for this kind of life and I am trying to be grateful…it’s just hard when you didn’t ask for or want the change in the first place!
Sorry to lament tonight…I’m just feeling it today and I needed to get it out! Tomorrow is another day!
And to all of my friends who have to move for their husbands work…my hat is now off to you because I don’t know how they did it so many times…all the while sucking it up with a smile on their face (even if they were crying inside!)
As Meg Ryan said in ‘you’ve got mail’ I’m just putting this out there to the big cosmic void!
Love to all!